She’d gone to the grave. She didn’t stay long; not as long as she had intended when she set out early that morning. She’d gone there slowly; she had a purpose in going, but weighed down with grief as she was, her feet would only take dragging steps. She dreaded to see what she knew she would find there, as if seeing would make it real, and there are times in one’s life when the sorrow is so dark and desperate that delaying the reality is attractive. She knew he was gone—she’d been there through the bitter end--only she didn’t want to bear witness to his loss, not yet. But she also longed to see him, to touch him, even just this one last time.
She’d gone there slowly, but returned running as fast as her legs could carry her, and wishing she could fly, to go that much faster.
When she first saw what had happened to the grave, she wanted to run right then. How can anguish heap upon anguish; how can an already-dark night grow even more chill and ominous? To lose that person dearer to one’s heart than life itself, and then the desecration of a tomb…it was almost more than she could bear. But she loved him, and so she had to go look, she had to know, she had to try to make sense of the senseless.
The ice that seemed to surround her entire body as she edged close to the defiled grave cannot be fathomed; it is the ice of a deep winter that does not end, of hope that does not grow. Yes, it was as she had feared. How and why had this happened?
A man stood nearby. She did not want to speak to him; she did not trust that any sound would come from her throat. But he might know, so she approached him gingerly and tugged his sleeve. He turned, and though his face was kind, she could not say why she was suddenly so terrified. But for the sake of the one she loved, she drew up her courage and asked her question, hoping this man would have an answer.
The answer came in his utterance of her name, of a sudden blinding flame that seized her body from the inside out, and the endless ice that had formerly held her did not melt but seemed to explode, as she knew. Her legs failed her—indeed, it felt like every organ in her body did—and she fell to her knees, weeping tears that streamed from her eyes as abundantly as the blood had flowed from his ravaged body only days before. She reached for him, but he stopped her with a few gentle words and a loving outstretched hand that did not quite touch her. And without knowing how, she found herself vertical and running for all she was worth, longing for wings because what she had to tell could not wait for the slowness of mortal feet. Why had she not believed until that day? Why had none of them believed? Why had she gone to the tomb with spices for a body that would never need them? She laughed jubilantly, knowing she would never doubt again.
She arrived in the town looking like a madwoman, her clothing indecorously mussed, her headcovering lost somewhere on the road and her hair flying like a wild lion’s mane, her eyes blazing. No wonder they did not believe her when she told them. But they would. Oh, they would, for they too would see him and then they would know.
She’d gone to the grave. She’d gone there cold and dead as stone. She returned more full of life than she’d ever thought possible.
She’d gone to the grave. She didn’t stay long. How could she remain in a tomb where he had not?
For as long as she lived, until the faithful servant returned to the loving master with joy, the fire did not leave her eyes.
Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene came to the tomb and saw that the stone had been removed from the tomb. So she ran and went to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one whom Jesus loved, and said to them, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we do not know where they have laid him.” Then Peter and the other disciple set out and went toward the tomb. The two were running together, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first. He bent down to look in and saw the linen wrappings lying there, but he did not go in. Then Simon Peter came, following him, and went into the tomb. He saw the linen wrappings lying there, and the cloth that had been on Jesus’ head, not lying with the linen wrappings but rolled up in a place by itself. 8Then the other disciple, who reached the tomb first, also went in, and he saw and believed; for as yet they did not understand the scripture, that he must rise from the dead. Then the disciples returned to their homes.
But Mary stood weeping outside the tomb. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb; and she saw two angels in white, sitting where the body of Jesus had been lying, one at the head and the other at the feet. They said to her, “Woman, why are you weeping?” She said to them, “They have taken away my Lord, and I do not know where they have laid him.” When she had said this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not know that it was Jesus. Jesus said to her, “Woman, why are you weeping? Whom are you looking for?” Supposing him to be the gardener, she said to him, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have laid him, and I will take him away.” Jesus said to her, “Mary!” She turned and said to him in Hebrew, “Rabbouni!” (which means Teacher). Jesus said to her, “Do not hold on to me, because I have not yet ascended to the Father. But go to my brothers and say to them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’” Mary Magdalene went and announced to the disciples, “I have seen the Lord”; and she told them that he had said these things to her.
--John 20:1-18 (NRSV)
(Sorta a rough draft. Yes, I've taken some poetic license as it's not 100% true to Scripture. I cried as I wrote this, and tears still well up just about every time I read it.)
Thursday, November 11, 2010
"You Raise Me Up"
I do have this tendency to take songs I like the music of and fitting my own words to them that have more meaning for me. "You Raise Me Up" is another such of these songs. The original words are by Brendan Graham and the music is by Rolf Løvland. The Josh Groban version is, IMO, THE version, though I understand it was originally performed by Brian Kennedy and Secret Garden, and that version is nice too, as is the one by Celtic Woman.
Here are my verses (yes, I realize the original song has only two, but I needed to make three. If I were singing it, the middle verse would likely be the one omitted)
Your strength and love surround me like an ocean
Your world extends far as the eye can see
You give me life, Redeemer and Creator (or, and reason for living)
Your grace and truth and light set my soul free
There is no light, no light without the darkness
There is no joy if there no sorrow be
There is no love, no love if there’s no passion
And without you, there cannot be a me
And when the darkness threatens to enfold me
And my way lies before me unclearly
You pick me up with arms as strong as thunder
And in your love you safely carry me
Here are my verses (yes, I realize the original song has only two, but I needed to make three. If I were singing it, the middle verse would likely be the one omitted)
Your strength and love surround me like an ocean
Your world extends far as the eye can see
You give me life, Redeemer and Creator (or, and reason for living)
Your grace and truth and light set my soul free
There is no light, no light without the darkness
There is no joy if there no sorrow be
There is no love, no love if there’s no passion
And without you, there cannot be a me
And when the darkness threatens to enfold me
And my way lies before me unclearly
You pick me up with arms as strong as thunder
And in your love you safely carry me
Over The Lake
7/21/2005
I stand on the pier, looking out over the water that appears to have no end, looking at what seems to me to be forever.
I close my eyes and feel the wind and rain against my face, experience the power of this feeling.
The words "our Father..." come to my mind, but I get no further than that. Just standing here feels like its own prayer.
For those few moments, I am the only person in the world--just me and my Lord. When I open my eyes the light is brighter than I'd expected and I'm half-surprised to see that the lake is still there, stretched endlessly toward the horizon.
I want to stay here in this magic for I-don't-know-how-long. But I begin moving again and as I reach land, I leap into the sand and walk to the water's edge, feeling the deep need to connect to the cold of the water that is his symbol of life. I stand on one foot, holding out the toes of first one foot for a few moments and then the other, waiting for the waves to wash over them. When they do, the cold is a flash of shock, but also an affirmation and I half-wish my entire body were submerged in that life-verifying chill.
As I walk back to the sidewalk, I suddenly wish I'd let my hair free to the glory of the wind, and think I might not even much mind the tangles such an action would cause.
There are no words to describe this. There is no way to convey the deep feeling in my soul as I stand before this massive water, feeling alone and yet important and complete in front of the God who created both it and I.
I know he exists, else why would I feel this way, this quickening of breath, this sudden sense that my soul is deeper than I'd ever imagined and that my heart, which feels so heavy with things it can barely begin to comprehend and yet understands perfectly, lies far within this darkness-yet-light as my body struggles to contain the largeness of that space?
Why else does it hurt, as though I'm too small, yet large enough to hold the universe and its love and its soul and its force and its continuity... all that ever was or ever will be lies in this moment, as I commune with the One who is in, and in fact is, everything, everywhere, at every time. God has risen up within me and I within him and it's all too much to be expressed in words. The only way I can find to communicate is the easiest--and also the most complex: my heart to his spirit, where words fail but wonder and praise and love will never pass away.
This moment will soon be gone, but I will be forever changed. And the water will still be there. So will God. So will I.
I stand on the pier, looking out over the water that appears to have no end, looking at what seems to me to be forever.
I close my eyes and feel the wind and rain against my face, experience the power of this feeling.
The words "our Father..." come to my mind, but I get no further than that. Just standing here feels like its own prayer.
For those few moments, I am the only person in the world--just me and my Lord. When I open my eyes the light is brighter than I'd expected and I'm half-surprised to see that the lake is still there, stretched endlessly toward the horizon.
I want to stay here in this magic for I-don't-know-how-long. But I begin moving again and as I reach land, I leap into the sand and walk to the water's edge, feeling the deep need to connect to the cold of the water that is his symbol of life. I stand on one foot, holding out the toes of first one foot for a few moments and then the other, waiting for the waves to wash over them. When they do, the cold is a flash of shock, but also an affirmation and I half-wish my entire body were submerged in that life-verifying chill.
As I walk back to the sidewalk, I suddenly wish I'd let my hair free to the glory of the wind, and think I might not even much mind the tangles such an action would cause.
There are no words to describe this. There is no way to convey the deep feeling in my soul as I stand before this massive water, feeling alone and yet important and complete in front of the God who created both it and I.
I know he exists, else why would I feel this way, this quickening of breath, this sudden sense that my soul is deeper than I'd ever imagined and that my heart, which feels so heavy with things it can barely begin to comprehend and yet understands perfectly, lies far within this darkness-yet-light as my body struggles to contain the largeness of that space?
Why else does it hurt, as though I'm too small, yet large enough to hold the universe and its love and its soul and its force and its continuity... all that ever was or ever will be lies in this moment, as I commune with the One who is in, and in fact is, everything, everywhere, at every time. God has risen up within me and I within him and it's all too much to be expressed in words. The only way I can find to communicate is the easiest--and also the most complex: my heart to his spirit, where words fail but wonder and praise and love will never pass away.
This moment will soon be gone, but I will be forever changed. And the water will still be there. So will God. So will I.
En Mi Corazón
I've always loved the music to the song Nella Fantasia (based on the instrumental theme Gabriel's Oboe from the movie "The Mission" [which I have not seen]), but never was very big on the words; I didn't feel they fit the music. For a long time I've wanted to write my own words, with a religious flavor, and failed. Some time in May of 2009, I gave up attempting to write the song in English, and it just flowed, with only a couple words that I had to look up in my Spanish-English dictionary to make sure they were right, and then sending it off to my partner's mum, who teaches Spanish and who corrected a few misplaced accents for me. As the movie takes place in Brazil, I always found it weird that the lyrics to this song were later written in Italian. Writing them in Spanish is, of course, still not entirely correct, but perhaps someday I'll be ambitious and try to translate it to Portuguese (which is not a language I can speak).
Here on Youtube you can listen to the song (and I do recommend listening to all three):
Sarah Brightman version
Chloe Agnew/Celtic Woman version
Paul Potts version
En Mi Corazón
En mi corazón
Yo siento un amor lindo
De Dios mi Padre y Jesús, mi amigo lo más fiel
Yo conozco el amor de Dios
Y yo tengo alegría en la luz de mi Salvador:
Su amor no sabe fin.
En mi corazón
Vive el Espíritu Santo
Mi guía en la vida y en la tormenta y la oscuridad
Yo conozco el amor de Dios
Y yo tengo alegría en la luz de mi Salvador:
Su amor no sabe fin.
En mi corazón
Yo tengo la vida eterna
Con gracia estaré con mi Señor para siempre
Yo conozco el amor de Dios
Y yo tengo alegría en la luz de mi Salvador:
Su amor no sabe fin.
And the English translation:
In My Heart
In my heart
I feel a beautiful love
From God my Father and Jesus, my most faithful friend
I know the love of God
And I have joy in the light of my Savior:
His love knows no end
In my heart
Lives the Holy Spirit
My guide in life and in the storm and in the darkness
I know the love of God
And I have joy in the light of my Savior:
His love knows no end
In my heart
I possess eternal life
With grace I will be with my Lord forever
I know the love of God
And I have joy in the light of my Savior:
His love knows no end
"Gabriel's Oboe" theme by Ennio Morricone; "Nella Fantasia" words by Chiara Ferraù
And here is my version-- I'm not that happy with the recording and I'm not a great singer, but it is heartfelt. https://www.box.com/s/a7tcmcxlmrvz8f1sohju
Here on Youtube you can listen to the song (and I do recommend listening to all three):
Sarah Brightman version
Chloe Agnew/Celtic Woman version
Paul Potts version
En Mi Corazón
En mi corazón
Yo siento un amor lindo
De Dios mi Padre y Jesús, mi amigo lo más fiel
Yo conozco el amor de Dios
Y yo tengo alegría en la luz de mi Salvador:
Su amor no sabe fin.
En mi corazón
Vive el Espíritu Santo
Mi guía en la vida y en la tormenta y la oscuridad
Yo conozco el amor de Dios
Y yo tengo alegría en la luz de mi Salvador:
Su amor no sabe fin.
En mi corazón
Yo tengo la vida eterna
Con gracia estaré con mi Señor para siempre
Yo conozco el amor de Dios
Y yo tengo alegría en la luz de mi Salvador:
Su amor no sabe fin.
And the English translation:
In My Heart
In my heart
I feel a beautiful love
From God my Father and Jesus, my most faithful friend
I know the love of God
And I have joy in the light of my Savior:
His love knows no end
In my heart
Lives the Holy Spirit
My guide in life and in the storm and in the darkness
I know the love of God
And I have joy in the light of my Savior:
His love knows no end
In my heart
I possess eternal life
With grace I will be with my Lord forever
I know the love of God
And I have joy in the light of my Savior:
His love knows no end
"Gabriel's Oboe" theme by Ennio Morricone; "Nella Fantasia" words by Chiara Ferraù
And here is my version-- I'm not that happy with the recording and I'm not a great singer, but it is heartfelt. https://www.box.com/s/a7tcmcxlmrvz8f1sohju
Christmas 2009
12/24/2009
A Light In the Darkness
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things came into being through him, and without him not one thing came into being. What has come into being in him was life, and the life was the light of all people. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it.
There was a man sent from God, whose name was John. He came as a witness to testify to the light, so that all might believe through him. He himself was not the light, but he came to testify to the light. The true light, which enlightens everyone, was coming into the world.
He was in the world, and the world came into being through him; yet the world did not know him. He came to what was his own, and his own people did not accept him. But to all who received him, who believed in his name, he gave power to become children of God, who were born, not of blood or of the will of the flesh or of the will of man, but of God.
And the Word became flesh and lived among us, and we have seen his glory, the glory as of a father’s only son, full of grace and truth. -John 1:1-14, NRSV
The other day I lit a candle on the winter solstice and thought about the darkest day of the year, and how from now on the days would become progressively longer and we would have more light each day. Being a Christian with somewhat-pagan tendencies (I connect with God strongly in nature and through the world he made, and so like to acknowledge the turning of the seasons), this had meaning for me.
I thought of people who would tell me I should be focusing on Advent, not Yule/Solstice (and in fact recently participated in a discussion on a message board about whether Christians should be using Advent “wreaths” and other greenery at Christmas, since this draws from pagan traditions). I couldn’t help but wonder how they could not see how easy the tie-in is.
The pagan sabbat of Yule/Solstice celebrates the coming of light on the darkest day of the year, and has done so for thousands of years. It is true that in the early days Christians “borrowed” many of these traditions to placate pagan converts, including Christmas trees, evergreen wreaths, and Yule logs (in fact, listen to some of the old Christmas songs and such and hear how they blatantly reference “Yule” logs—this is one tradition we haven’t even tried to pull under the cover of Christianity!), and these traditions survive to today, though many people could not tell you of their origins. This is one reason some Christians won't celebrate Christmas, or won't have a Christmas tree, etc.
I’ll admit that I have no qualms about discarding those of the borrowed traditions that do not enhance my spiritual experience of the holiday. I do not have a Christmas tree and do not feel the need for one (nor am I enamored of either killing a tree for the purpose of a few weeks’ display, or its plastic alternative). I am not averse, however, to a few respectfully-gathered evergreen boughs or sprigs of holly, bringing a bit of God’s world inside to where I live. But it is the lights and candles I love the most, for the light and warmth and meaning they bring.
So I sat by my little candle (I didn’t light my Advent candles for the occasion, though I wanted to; the simple truth is that my Advent candleholder wouldn’t fit on my messy bedside table and my colored Advent candles are running low and I haven’t yet found suitable replacements so I’m loathe to burn them too much) and thought about darkness and light. I thought of how each year at this time we anticipate and celebrate the coming of the Light of the World. December 25 may not be the actual date Jesus was born; scholars say it’s unlikely he was born in winter. The date was chosen because of its proximity to the solstice (again, to make conversion a little easier for those used to observing that particular holy time). For this reason alone, some Christians refuse to celebrate Christmas, or insist on celebrating at a different time of year. I’m not such a purist. A birthday celebration is still a birthday celebration, whether it occurs on the actual day or at another time, and it is not diminished by the imperfection of chronology. As the actual date of Jesus’ birth has been lost, any celebration is unlikely to fall on that date, so I don’t worry about it. I’m also not worried by its proximity to a pagan celebration; the mention of other religions and their practices is not a dirty word to me, and a faith that cares more for the earth than many members of my own, cannot, in my mind, be a bad thing.
Meanwhile, the selection of a date near the solstice has definite symbolic meaning. As I watched my candle flicker and felt peace slowly wash over me, I thought of the despair that the darkest day of an entire year can bring, and the hope that comes with the knowledge that brighter days will follow. Our Savior, too, comes near this darkest of days to bring light and hope to the world, and though it may not be true that he actually came at this time of year, our celebration at this time means that we are still acknowledging and anticipating that light and hope at a time when we perhaps need it most. We eagerly wait for his coming, as we do every year, and the days seem just a bit brighter. Dark as the nights may be, dark as the world may be, we know that we have the Light of the World, that light which shines in the darkness and which the darkness has not and cannot overcome, just as John said.
Two hymns came to mind as I sat with my candle, and I sang them to myself, silently in my head, though I wanted to let them echo over the rooftops: Oh, come, all ye faithful, joyful and triumphant … oh, come let us adore him, Christ the Lord! … Yea, Lord, we greet thee, born this happy morning … oh, come let us adore him! and Oh come, oh come, Emmanuel … Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel shall come to thee, oh Israel!
How can the world be dark when he is in our midst? He shines his light and shows the way in which we should go and walk with him, in which we should love, in which we should and can and will be saved.
Later, when I went to bed, I put the candle out. But I, and all of us, will carry his light inside us on this day, throughout the year, and throughout our lives, and the darkness will not overcome it. This is the good news of our Lord--repeat the sounding joy!
Oh come, Emmanuel, God with us, Light of the World. Come to our hearts, come to our lives. Show us who we should be and how we should live, according to your ways and your love. Come to those of us who have all we need and allow us, help us, to be a light to others, shining forth your light from within us. Come to those of us in darkness and cold and bring your light and hope and grace to those of us who need them. Come to us, whoever we are and wherever we may be, whenever we call to you but especially at this time of year when we so fervently await your coming. And help us to come to you at your call. Come, thou long-expected Jesus!
O come all ye faithful
Joyful and triumphant,
O come ye, O come ye to Bethlehem.
Come and behold Him,
Born the King of Angels;
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
Christ the Lord.
Sing, choirs of angels,
Sing in exultation,
Sing, all ye citizens of heaven above.
Glory to God, glory in the Highest;
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
Christ the Lord.
Yea, Lord, we greet Thee,
Born this happy morning,
Jesus to thee be all glory given.
Word of the Father, now in flesh appearing;
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
Christ the Lord.
*
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O come, O come, Emmanuel
And ransom captive Israel
That mourns in lonely exile here
Until the Son of God appear
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.
O come, Thou Day-star, come and cheer
Our spirits by Thine advent here
Disperse the gloomy clouds of night
And death's dark shadows put to flight.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.
O come, Thou Key of David, come,
And open wide our heavenly home;
Make safe the way that leads to Thee,
And close the path to misery.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.
O come to lead us Adonai,
Who to the tribes on height of Sinai
In ancient times did'st give the Law,
In cloud, and majesty and awe.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.**
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What can I give him, poor as I am?
If I were a shepherd, I would bring a lamb;
If I were a wise man, I would do my part;
Yet what can I give him? Give my heart!***
*"Oh Come, All Ye Faithful" Latin words by John F. Wade, translated by Frederick Oakeley & William T. Brooke. Music tune "Adeste Fidelis" sometimes attributed to Wade and sometimes not.
**"O Come, O Come Emmanuel" words/music unknown; translated to English by John Mason Neale.
***"In The Bleak Midwinter" words Christina Rossetti, music Gustav Holst.
A Light In the Darkness
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things came into being through him, and without him not one thing came into being. What has come into being in him was life, and the life was the light of all people. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it.
There was a man sent from God, whose name was John. He came as a witness to testify to the light, so that all might believe through him. He himself was not the light, but he came to testify to the light. The true light, which enlightens everyone, was coming into the world.
He was in the world, and the world came into being through him; yet the world did not know him. He came to what was his own, and his own people did not accept him. But to all who received him, who believed in his name, he gave power to become children of God, who were born, not of blood or of the will of the flesh or of the will of man, but of God.
And the Word became flesh and lived among us, and we have seen his glory, the glory as of a father’s only son, full of grace and truth. -John 1:1-14, NRSV
The other day I lit a candle on the winter solstice and thought about the darkest day of the year, and how from now on the days would become progressively longer and we would have more light each day. Being a Christian with somewhat-pagan tendencies (I connect with God strongly in nature and through the world he made, and so like to acknowledge the turning of the seasons), this had meaning for me.
I thought of people who would tell me I should be focusing on Advent, not Yule/Solstice (and in fact recently participated in a discussion on a message board about whether Christians should be using Advent “wreaths” and other greenery at Christmas, since this draws from pagan traditions). I couldn’t help but wonder how they could not see how easy the tie-in is.
The pagan sabbat of Yule/Solstice celebrates the coming of light on the darkest day of the year, and has done so for thousands of years. It is true that in the early days Christians “borrowed” many of these traditions to placate pagan converts, including Christmas trees, evergreen wreaths, and Yule logs (in fact, listen to some of the old Christmas songs and such and hear how they blatantly reference “Yule” logs—this is one tradition we haven’t even tried to pull under the cover of Christianity!), and these traditions survive to today, though many people could not tell you of their origins. This is one reason some Christians won't celebrate Christmas, or won't have a Christmas tree, etc.
I’ll admit that I have no qualms about discarding those of the borrowed traditions that do not enhance my spiritual experience of the holiday. I do not have a Christmas tree and do not feel the need for one (nor am I enamored of either killing a tree for the purpose of a few weeks’ display, or its plastic alternative). I am not averse, however, to a few respectfully-gathered evergreen boughs or sprigs of holly, bringing a bit of God’s world inside to where I live. But it is the lights and candles I love the most, for the light and warmth and meaning they bring.
So I sat by my little candle (I didn’t light my Advent candles for the occasion, though I wanted to; the simple truth is that my Advent candleholder wouldn’t fit on my messy bedside table and my colored Advent candles are running low and I haven’t yet found suitable replacements so I’m loathe to burn them too much) and thought about darkness and light. I thought of how each year at this time we anticipate and celebrate the coming of the Light of the World. December 25 may not be the actual date Jesus was born; scholars say it’s unlikely he was born in winter. The date was chosen because of its proximity to the solstice (again, to make conversion a little easier for those used to observing that particular holy time). For this reason alone, some Christians refuse to celebrate Christmas, or insist on celebrating at a different time of year. I’m not such a purist. A birthday celebration is still a birthday celebration, whether it occurs on the actual day or at another time, and it is not diminished by the imperfection of chronology. As the actual date of Jesus’ birth has been lost, any celebration is unlikely to fall on that date, so I don’t worry about it. I’m also not worried by its proximity to a pagan celebration; the mention of other religions and their practices is not a dirty word to me, and a faith that cares more for the earth than many members of my own, cannot, in my mind, be a bad thing.
Meanwhile, the selection of a date near the solstice has definite symbolic meaning. As I watched my candle flicker and felt peace slowly wash over me, I thought of the despair that the darkest day of an entire year can bring, and the hope that comes with the knowledge that brighter days will follow. Our Savior, too, comes near this darkest of days to bring light and hope to the world, and though it may not be true that he actually came at this time of year, our celebration at this time means that we are still acknowledging and anticipating that light and hope at a time when we perhaps need it most. We eagerly wait for his coming, as we do every year, and the days seem just a bit brighter. Dark as the nights may be, dark as the world may be, we know that we have the Light of the World, that light which shines in the darkness and which the darkness has not and cannot overcome, just as John said.
Two hymns came to mind as I sat with my candle, and I sang them to myself, silently in my head, though I wanted to let them echo over the rooftops: Oh, come, all ye faithful, joyful and triumphant … oh, come let us adore him, Christ the Lord! … Yea, Lord, we greet thee, born this happy morning … oh, come let us adore him! and Oh come, oh come, Emmanuel … Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel shall come to thee, oh Israel!
How can the world be dark when he is in our midst? He shines his light and shows the way in which we should go and walk with him, in which we should love, in which we should and can and will be saved.
Later, when I went to bed, I put the candle out. But I, and all of us, will carry his light inside us on this day, throughout the year, and throughout our lives, and the darkness will not overcome it. This is the good news of our Lord--repeat the sounding joy!
Oh come, Emmanuel, God with us, Light of the World. Come to our hearts, come to our lives. Show us who we should be and how we should live, according to your ways and your love. Come to those of us who have all we need and allow us, help us, to be a light to others, shining forth your light from within us. Come to those of us in darkness and cold and bring your light and hope and grace to those of us who need them. Come to us, whoever we are and wherever we may be, whenever we call to you but especially at this time of year when we so fervently await your coming. And help us to come to you at your call. Come, thou long-expected Jesus!
O come all ye faithful
Joyful and triumphant,
O come ye, O come ye to Bethlehem.
Come and behold Him,
Born the King of Angels;
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
Christ the Lord.
Sing, choirs of angels,
Sing in exultation,
Sing, all ye citizens of heaven above.
Glory to God, glory in the Highest;
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
Christ the Lord.
Yea, Lord, we greet Thee,
Born this happy morning,
Jesus to thee be all glory given.
Word of the Father, now in flesh appearing;
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
O come, let us adore Him,
Christ the Lord.
*
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O come, O come, Emmanuel
And ransom captive Israel
That mourns in lonely exile here
Until the Son of God appear
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.
O come, Thou Day-star, come and cheer
Our spirits by Thine advent here
Disperse the gloomy clouds of night
And death's dark shadows put to flight.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.
O come, Thou Key of David, come,
And open wide our heavenly home;
Make safe the way that leads to Thee,
And close the path to misery.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.
O come to lead us Adonai,
Who to the tribes on height of Sinai
In ancient times did'st give the Law,
In cloud, and majesty and awe.
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel.**
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What can I give him, poor as I am?
If I were a shepherd, I would bring a lamb;
If I were a wise man, I would do my part;
Yet what can I give him? Give my heart!***
*"Oh Come, All Ye Faithful" Latin words by John F. Wade, translated by Frederick Oakeley & William T. Brooke. Music tune "Adeste Fidelis" sometimes attributed to Wade and sometimes not.
**"O Come, O Come Emmanuel" words/music unknown; translated to English by John Mason Neale.
***"In The Bleak Midwinter" words Christina Rossetti, music Gustav Holst.
Christmas 2005
12-24-2005
Where Shepherds Lately Knelt...and so do we
Where shepherds lately knelt, and kept the angel's word
I come in half-belief, a pilgrim strangely stirred;
but there is room and welcome there for me;
but there is room and welcome there for me.
In that unlikely place I find Him as they said:
sweet newborn Babe, how frail! and in a manger bed:
a still small Voice to cry one day for me,
a still small Voice to cry one day for me.
How should I not have known Isaiah would be there.
his prophecies fulfilled? With pounding heart I stare:
a Child, a Son, the Prince of Peace - for me,
a Child, a Son, the Prince of Peace - for me.
Can I, will I forget how Love was born,
and burned its way into my heart unasked, unforced, unearned,
to die, to live, and not alone for me?
to die, to live, and not alone for me.*
Yes, last year I also wrote about a song. Music has this way of getting to us, of expressing truths that sometimes, other words may not. Maybe it's just that taking powerful words, and adding powerful music to them, makes twice of an impact. So here I am, with another song, because I sing in the choir, and that's what I do at Christmas time--more than any spoken words, which are mostly from the Bible and what you hear, at the very least, every year....I go, and I sing music, music that doesn't necessarily get pulled out year after year. But this one, I wish it was. I liked it a lot, and what wasn't to like--good words, good music, lovely violin accompaniment....we only sang it once, years and years ago, but I keep hoping it'll make a comeback in the choir one of these years.
The song as a whole is striking, and before you continue, read it over a couple of times and let it sink in (and listen on Youtube here and here and here). But breaking it down, there's even more to be found, so that's what I am going to do.
Where shepherds lately knelt, and kept the angel's word
I come in half-belief, a pilgrim strangely stirred;
but there is room and welcome there for me;
but there is room and welcome there for me.
I could go into the Scriptures behind this in detail: the first line, of course, refers to the angels having come to the shepherds in the fields and announced to them that "I am bringing you good news of great joy for all the people: to you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is the Messiah, the Lord. This will be a sign for you: you will find a child wrapped in bands of cloth and lying in a manger." (Luke 2:10-12 [NRSV]) And the shepherds went, and found him there, just as the angel had said.
And now in the next three lines, we find the true meaning of this verse, not referring to any Scripture per se. The narrator of the song confesses: "I come in half belief." This is someone who doesn't necessarily believe this good news they have been told; perhaps they're cynical that this could really be for them or what was hoped for, or afraid, or just plain skeptical that this thing has happened at all. Yet they are also "a pilgrim strangely stirred." Perhaps they need to see what this is all about anyway, or perhaps they want to believe but aren't sure they can. They come reluctantly to the manger, to Bethlehem--and do please remember from last year that when I refer to "Bethlehem," I don't mean a physical place; you don't have to say "um, that was a couple thousand years ago, how am I going to go there?" How far is it to Bethlehem, anyway--as near as your own heart. Bethlehem is the place you find when you seek Jesus in your life, the place he calls us from and to and stands with open arms, waiting to receive us--but I'm getting ahead of myself.
So, maybe you are this person. "But my faith is strong," you say. "I'm a Christian. There's no half-belief about me." Isn't there? Then you're a rare one--because I'll confess, Christian though I may be, I certainly find it hard to believe, entirely, ALL the time. Where is God in this turmoil we call a world anyway? Where is he this year when I'm facing hardship? And if you're thinking this way also...well, that's okay. The next line tells us this:
"But there is room and welcome there for me." That's a powerful line if you really think about it, especially in relation to the other lines of this verse. Here is someone who is confessing that they don't entirely believe--they just come with a curiosity, because they're drawn to this place for reasons they can't fathom. BUT THERE IS ROOM AND WELCOME. I can imagine it, can't you? Everyone moves over a little bit, makes a space in the circle of warmth, makes a place for us, too, to gather around and see the amazing baby born tonight, welcomes us there also as worshippers, as children of the Lord we all share. Even though we're unsure, even though we feel unworthy, there is still a place in God's heart and God's home and God's arms for us...no matter what our shortcomings, no matter how often we've questioned him, there is still room and welcome for as many more of us who wish to come and share in his love.
I think this is very important for us to remember for a number of reasons. The first is that, none of us will ever be perfect. And though our inclination may be to wait to come to God until we are, if we do that, we'll never get there. But he calls us NOW. We can go as we are, and kneel at "the throne of grace," and he will say, "Welcome, my child. You are loved." And we are.
The second reason I think this is important is that we have to remember that we are ALL his children. This was a lesson that hit me rather strongly about a month ago, in Sunday School, of all places--I was helping out with one of the kids' classes, and the lesson was about Jonah. In short, the story of Jonah is that God wants him to tell the Ninevites that they're doing wrong and God is angry, but they should repent and God will forgive them. Jonah doesn't want to do this--those Ninevites are bad, they don't deserve God's love and compassion as much as "good Christians" like him! And this is why he is punished. The lesson of the day being, of course, that God's compassion is for EVERYONE. This is something that people like Jerry Falwell and Fred Phelps miss, and yes, even the rest of us, though perhaps to a smaller extent! But don't we often think it's unfair that we're good and other people who we deem to be not-so-good are treated equally by God? The truth is that NONE of us are probably as good as we think we are, and we're ALL in need of God's grace and compassion...and who are we to decide who gets it and who doesn't? We're all equally loved in his eyes. And so, there is room and welcome there for me, for you, for everyone, no matter how we mess up, no matter how much we may doubt--as long as we are drawn to that place, we find room and welcome. And that's TRULY the good news of the Nativity.
In that unlikely place I find Him as they said:
sweet newborn Babe, how frail! and in a manger bed:
a still small Voice to cry one day for me,
a still small Voice to cry one day for me.
When we go to Bethlehem, we find him as they said we would, in a stable, in a manger. In that unlikely place. It's hardly where one would expect to find a baby, let alone THAT baby! Hardly a place for a King of Kings, a Savior of his people. Yet there he is. Plenty of people have voiced why, exactly, we find him in that unlikely place: he came to where we were. He could've been born in a palace of gold...but he chose to come to just about the lowest place there was: a stable, full of animals and animal excrement, and some of the first people to see him were shepherds, who were probably not exactly high on the social totem pole. For some of us, that means he is here, right on our social level. For others of us, that means he's actually below where we would find ourselves in society. He's not high above us, lording over us, but he walks beside us, he shares our lives, he's been down in the muck and the dirt and we can relate to him. He calls us his friends. He is truly here FOR us, WITH us, on our level, where we are.
And so we find him, this tiny baby, lying in a MANGER of all places--what in the world could he possibly do for us? Yet once again, the song goes on: he is "a still, small voice to cry one day for me." Right now? No, there may not be much this little baby can do. But we know that some day--in a few months, if we're speaking of living the liturgical year, and in about 30 years if we're speaking in terms of his actual life--he will be crying out for us in a voice that spans the ages; we can still hear it today if we listen closely enough in our hearts.
How should I not have known Isaiah would be there,
his prophecies fulfilled? With pounding heart I stare:
a Child, a Son, the Prince of Peace - for me,
a Child, a Son, the Prince of Peace - for me.
This verse, of course, refers to Isaiah's prophecy about Jesus (ignoring, for the moment, that some scholars argue that Isaiah's words weren't referring to Jesus at all). Specifically, it's Isaiah 9:6 that names Jesus as the Prince of Peace, a child born for us and a son given to us. Of course, Isaiah wasn't at the Nativity; he lived centuries before Jesus was born. But it's a nice way to tie his prophecy into the song, all the same. The song's narrator says, "With pounding heart I stare." Is this reaction amazement at the fact that the thing Isaiah foretold has come true? Or that here, finally, is the Savior everyone has been waiting for? Sometimes I myself wonder what it would feel like to have been there that night, kneeling in that stable, knowing who this baby was and what he meant to the world. I think I would have some pretty strong reactions myself, wouldn't you? This child was born for us, God's son given to us, as a precious gift of love.... royalty of heaven who will bring peace to the world. I wouldn't be able to take my eyes off him; I probably would feel my heart speed up at the sight and the thought of him.
Can I, will I forget how Love was born,
and burned its way into my heart unasked, unforced, unearned,
to die, to live, and not alone for me?
to die, to live, and not alone for me.
And finally, this last, powerful verse. Once we have seen and felt and experienced the power of the love of God and Jesus Christ, can we ever forget it? Will we ever be the same? And if we really open our hearts to him, can we keep him out, keep him from imprinting himself indelibly on our hearts? The word the song uses is "burned," which in a way makes me think of a brand, like cattle are given--God's love burned into our hearts, deeply and permanently into our flesh and lives. It's not a bad type of burning that we should be afraid of; it's nothing like that time you accidentally touched the hot pan on the stove. It's the fire of the passion of how much God loves us, and once it has made its mark on us, like a scar, nothing can make it go away.
The song also says that this love is "unasked, unforced, unearned." We don't have to ask for God to love us--he just does. Even before we maybe know that we want him to. And his love is not forced upon us--God doesn't come along and take over our lives. His love slips quietly in, giving us strength and peace always. And finally....it is unearned. There is nothing we can do to make God love us (or not love us). We know that we are not worthy of his love--sometimes we mess up, sometimes we doubt him, sometimes our love for him and each other falters. But in spite of all that, HIS love for US still is strong and true, and it doesn't matter how much we may not deserve it. He loves us anyway.
And finally...."to die, to live, and not alone for me." It is only in this last line that we are reminded of what Jesus did for us. He died for us all. And what a lot of people forget was that he also LIVED for us--his life was dedicated to helping those who needed help, reaching out to those who had no one, living with love and peace and wisdom and teaching us how we might do the same.
I've often wondered about the wording of "and not alone for me." What does this mean? Does it mean that he did not die for just me, or just you, but for everyone? Or does it mean that he was not alone when he died? I like to think of it as being both ways. The first meaning goes back to what I said earlier, that God's love is not just for us or those we think deserve it, but for everyone, and it is the same with the grace that Jesus brings. The second meaning could say a lot of things. Who was with Jesus when he died? Certainly those who were most faithful to him--his mother, some of his disciples. And, through the ages, in spirit at least, we can be with him too, in the same way we can be with him tonight in Bethlehem...all we have to do is open up our hearts to him and believe.
This song, I think, is put together very cleverly. In each verse, the last line--the most important line--is repeated, for emphasis, so it sticks in our minds: there is room and welcome. There is a still, small voice that will always cry out for us. For unto us a child is born, a son is given, and it is Jesus, the Prince of Peace. Jesus died, and lived, for us. And in each verse, the last two words are always the same: "for me." That's a powerful reminder as well, that everything we see when when look at Jesus, when we hear his words and the stories of his life....all of that, is for US. And to drive the point home, the song doesn't say "for us"--from that, we get the idea, but it's a bit impersonal, just being one in the crowd. The song goes a step further and makes it "for me." That is, for me, for you, each of you, each of us, individually. Each of us is important to God and loved by God, as a single, unique person, even though all of us collectively are loved by him equally. God's love and grace are extended to you, personally. That is amazing.
So tonight, we pilgrims who are strangely stirred by the love of God and the one who epitomizes that love, gather together and sing his praises, and for a moment, we are transported there to Jesus' birth too, even if only in the dark silence of our hearts. And there is room and welcome there for us all.
*"Where Shepherds Lately Knelt" words by Jaroslav Vajda and music by Craig Courtney (another tune for these words is by Carl Schalk).
Where Shepherds Lately Knelt...and so do we
Where shepherds lately knelt, and kept the angel's word
I come in half-belief, a pilgrim strangely stirred;
but there is room and welcome there for me;
but there is room and welcome there for me.
In that unlikely place I find Him as they said:
sweet newborn Babe, how frail! and in a manger bed:
a still small Voice to cry one day for me,
a still small Voice to cry one day for me.
How should I not have known Isaiah would be there.
his prophecies fulfilled? With pounding heart I stare:
a Child, a Son, the Prince of Peace - for me,
a Child, a Son, the Prince of Peace - for me.
Can I, will I forget how Love was born,
and burned its way into my heart unasked, unforced, unearned,
to die, to live, and not alone for me?
to die, to live, and not alone for me.*
Yes, last year I also wrote about a song. Music has this way of getting to us, of expressing truths that sometimes, other words may not. Maybe it's just that taking powerful words, and adding powerful music to them, makes twice of an impact. So here I am, with another song, because I sing in the choir, and that's what I do at Christmas time--more than any spoken words, which are mostly from the Bible and what you hear, at the very least, every year....I go, and I sing music, music that doesn't necessarily get pulled out year after year. But this one, I wish it was. I liked it a lot, and what wasn't to like--good words, good music, lovely violin accompaniment....we only sang it once, years and years ago, but I keep hoping it'll make a comeback in the choir one of these years.
The song as a whole is striking, and before you continue, read it over a couple of times and let it sink in (and listen on Youtube here and here and here). But breaking it down, there's even more to be found, so that's what I am going to do.
Where shepherds lately knelt, and kept the angel's word
I come in half-belief, a pilgrim strangely stirred;
but there is room and welcome there for me;
but there is room and welcome there for me.
I could go into the Scriptures behind this in detail: the first line, of course, refers to the angels having come to the shepherds in the fields and announced to them that "I am bringing you good news of great joy for all the people: to you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is the Messiah, the Lord. This will be a sign for you: you will find a child wrapped in bands of cloth and lying in a manger." (Luke 2:10-12 [NRSV]) And the shepherds went, and found him there, just as the angel had said.
And now in the next three lines, we find the true meaning of this verse, not referring to any Scripture per se. The narrator of the song confesses: "I come in half belief." This is someone who doesn't necessarily believe this good news they have been told; perhaps they're cynical that this could really be for them or what was hoped for, or afraid, or just plain skeptical that this thing has happened at all. Yet they are also "a pilgrim strangely stirred." Perhaps they need to see what this is all about anyway, or perhaps they want to believe but aren't sure they can. They come reluctantly to the manger, to Bethlehem--and do please remember from last year that when I refer to "Bethlehem," I don't mean a physical place; you don't have to say "um, that was a couple thousand years ago, how am I going to go there?" How far is it to Bethlehem, anyway--as near as your own heart. Bethlehem is the place you find when you seek Jesus in your life, the place he calls us from and to and stands with open arms, waiting to receive us--but I'm getting ahead of myself.
So, maybe you are this person. "But my faith is strong," you say. "I'm a Christian. There's no half-belief about me." Isn't there? Then you're a rare one--because I'll confess, Christian though I may be, I certainly find it hard to believe, entirely, ALL the time. Where is God in this turmoil we call a world anyway? Where is he this year when I'm facing hardship? And if you're thinking this way also...well, that's okay. The next line tells us this:
"But there is room and welcome there for me." That's a powerful line if you really think about it, especially in relation to the other lines of this verse. Here is someone who is confessing that they don't entirely believe--they just come with a curiosity, because they're drawn to this place for reasons they can't fathom. BUT THERE IS ROOM AND WELCOME. I can imagine it, can't you? Everyone moves over a little bit, makes a space in the circle of warmth, makes a place for us, too, to gather around and see the amazing baby born tonight, welcomes us there also as worshippers, as children of the Lord we all share. Even though we're unsure, even though we feel unworthy, there is still a place in God's heart and God's home and God's arms for us...no matter what our shortcomings, no matter how often we've questioned him, there is still room and welcome for as many more of us who wish to come and share in his love.
I think this is very important for us to remember for a number of reasons. The first is that, none of us will ever be perfect. And though our inclination may be to wait to come to God until we are, if we do that, we'll never get there. But he calls us NOW. We can go as we are, and kneel at "the throne of grace," and he will say, "Welcome, my child. You are loved." And we are.
The second reason I think this is important is that we have to remember that we are ALL his children. This was a lesson that hit me rather strongly about a month ago, in Sunday School, of all places--I was helping out with one of the kids' classes, and the lesson was about Jonah. In short, the story of Jonah is that God wants him to tell the Ninevites that they're doing wrong and God is angry, but they should repent and God will forgive them. Jonah doesn't want to do this--those Ninevites are bad, they don't deserve God's love and compassion as much as "good Christians" like him! And this is why he is punished. The lesson of the day being, of course, that God's compassion is for EVERYONE. This is something that people like Jerry Falwell and Fred Phelps miss, and yes, even the rest of us, though perhaps to a smaller extent! But don't we often think it's unfair that we're good and other people who we deem to be not-so-good are treated equally by God? The truth is that NONE of us are probably as good as we think we are, and we're ALL in need of God's grace and compassion...and who are we to decide who gets it and who doesn't? We're all equally loved in his eyes. And so, there is room and welcome there for me, for you, for everyone, no matter how we mess up, no matter how much we may doubt--as long as we are drawn to that place, we find room and welcome. And that's TRULY the good news of the Nativity.
In that unlikely place I find Him as they said:
sweet newborn Babe, how frail! and in a manger bed:
a still small Voice to cry one day for me,
a still small Voice to cry one day for me.
When we go to Bethlehem, we find him as they said we would, in a stable, in a manger. In that unlikely place. It's hardly where one would expect to find a baby, let alone THAT baby! Hardly a place for a King of Kings, a Savior of his people. Yet there he is. Plenty of people have voiced why, exactly, we find him in that unlikely place: he came to where we were. He could've been born in a palace of gold...but he chose to come to just about the lowest place there was: a stable, full of animals and animal excrement, and some of the first people to see him were shepherds, who were probably not exactly high on the social totem pole. For some of us, that means he is here, right on our social level. For others of us, that means he's actually below where we would find ourselves in society. He's not high above us, lording over us, but he walks beside us, he shares our lives, he's been down in the muck and the dirt and we can relate to him. He calls us his friends. He is truly here FOR us, WITH us, on our level, where we are.
And so we find him, this tiny baby, lying in a MANGER of all places--what in the world could he possibly do for us? Yet once again, the song goes on: he is "a still, small voice to cry one day for me." Right now? No, there may not be much this little baby can do. But we know that some day--in a few months, if we're speaking of living the liturgical year, and in about 30 years if we're speaking in terms of his actual life--he will be crying out for us in a voice that spans the ages; we can still hear it today if we listen closely enough in our hearts.
How should I not have known Isaiah would be there,
his prophecies fulfilled? With pounding heart I stare:
a Child, a Son, the Prince of Peace - for me,
a Child, a Son, the Prince of Peace - for me.
This verse, of course, refers to Isaiah's prophecy about Jesus (ignoring, for the moment, that some scholars argue that Isaiah's words weren't referring to Jesus at all). Specifically, it's Isaiah 9:6 that names Jesus as the Prince of Peace, a child born for us and a son given to us. Of course, Isaiah wasn't at the Nativity; he lived centuries before Jesus was born. But it's a nice way to tie his prophecy into the song, all the same. The song's narrator says, "With pounding heart I stare." Is this reaction amazement at the fact that the thing Isaiah foretold has come true? Or that here, finally, is the Savior everyone has been waiting for? Sometimes I myself wonder what it would feel like to have been there that night, kneeling in that stable, knowing who this baby was and what he meant to the world. I think I would have some pretty strong reactions myself, wouldn't you? This child was born for us, God's son given to us, as a precious gift of love.... royalty of heaven who will bring peace to the world. I wouldn't be able to take my eyes off him; I probably would feel my heart speed up at the sight and the thought of him.
Can I, will I forget how Love was born,
and burned its way into my heart unasked, unforced, unearned,
to die, to live, and not alone for me?
to die, to live, and not alone for me.
And finally, this last, powerful verse. Once we have seen and felt and experienced the power of the love of God and Jesus Christ, can we ever forget it? Will we ever be the same? And if we really open our hearts to him, can we keep him out, keep him from imprinting himself indelibly on our hearts? The word the song uses is "burned," which in a way makes me think of a brand, like cattle are given--God's love burned into our hearts, deeply and permanently into our flesh and lives. It's not a bad type of burning that we should be afraid of; it's nothing like that time you accidentally touched the hot pan on the stove. It's the fire of the passion of how much God loves us, and once it has made its mark on us, like a scar, nothing can make it go away.
The song also says that this love is "unasked, unforced, unearned." We don't have to ask for God to love us--he just does. Even before we maybe know that we want him to. And his love is not forced upon us--God doesn't come along and take over our lives. His love slips quietly in, giving us strength and peace always. And finally....it is unearned. There is nothing we can do to make God love us (or not love us). We know that we are not worthy of his love--sometimes we mess up, sometimes we doubt him, sometimes our love for him and each other falters. But in spite of all that, HIS love for US still is strong and true, and it doesn't matter how much we may not deserve it. He loves us anyway.
And finally...."to die, to live, and not alone for me." It is only in this last line that we are reminded of what Jesus did for us. He died for us all. And what a lot of people forget was that he also LIVED for us--his life was dedicated to helping those who needed help, reaching out to those who had no one, living with love and peace and wisdom and teaching us how we might do the same.
I've often wondered about the wording of "and not alone for me." What does this mean? Does it mean that he did not die for just me, or just you, but for everyone? Or does it mean that he was not alone when he died? I like to think of it as being both ways. The first meaning goes back to what I said earlier, that God's love is not just for us or those we think deserve it, but for everyone, and it is the same with the grace that Jesus brings. The second meaning could say a lot of things. Who was with Jesus when he died? Certainly those who were most faithful to him--his mother, some of his disciples. And, through the ages, in spirit at least, we can be with him too, in the same way we can be with him tonight in Bethlehem...all we have to do is open up our hearts to him and believe.
This song, I think, is put together very cleverly. In each verse, the last line--the most important line--is repeated, for emphasis, so it sticks in our minds: there is room and welcome. There is a still, small voice that will always cry out for us. For unto us a child is born, a son is given, and it is Jesus, the Prince of Peace. Jesus died, and lived, for us. And in each verse, the last two words are always the same: "for me." That's a powerful reminder as well, that everything we see when when look at Jesus, when we hear his words and the stories of his life....all of that, is for US. And to drive the point home, the song doesn't say "for us"--from that, we get the idea, but it's a bit impersonal, just being one in the crowd. The song goes a step further and makes it "for me." That is, for me, for you, each of you, each of us, individually. Each of us is important to God and loved by God, as a single, unique person, even though all of us collectively are loved by him equally. God's love and grace are extended to you, personally. That is amazing.
So tonight, we pilgrims who are strangely stirred by the love of God and the one who epitomizes that love, gather together and sing his praises, and for a moment, we are transported there to Jesus' birth too, even if only in the dark silence of our hearts. And there is room and welcome there for us all.
*"Where Shepherds Lately Knelt" words by Jaroslav Vajda and music by Craig Courtney (another tune for these words is by Carl Schalk).
Christmas 2004
12-24-2004
How far is it to Bethlehem?
"How far is it to Bethlehem? Not very far." These are the words of a song I sang in high school on a couple of different occasions. To me, it always seemed there was a deeper meaning than just the story of a group of travelers in Israel 2,000 years ago, wishing to visit their newborn King. After all, how does that relate to us here and now? What can we learn from the story of the baby Jesus other than the facts of an old, though important, tale?
It's easy to forget that it's more than just a story. Every year we gather to welcome our Savior to the world once again. We sing songs, we pray, we spend time with family, we may meditate on our lives and what Jesus means to them. But it's still easy to think of it as just an old tale.
Can we find the meaning of that tale in today's busy world? Can we look past the rush and commercialism that is Christmas these days and truly imagine what it was like on the night when choirs of angels sang to shepherds?
In "A Charlie Brown Christmas," a frustrated Charlie Brown yells, "Isn't there anyone who knows what Christmas is all about?" Linus steps up and quietly quotes Luke 2:8-14: And there were in the same country shepherds, abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them! And they were sore afraid ... And the angel said unto them, "Fear not! For, behold, I bring you tidings of great joy, which shall be to all my people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ, the Lord."
"And this shall be a sign unto you: Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger." And suddenly, there was with the angel a multitude of the Heavenly Host praising God, and saying, "Glory to God in the Highest, and on Earth peace, and good will toward men." He finishes with, "and that's what Christmas is all about, Charlie Brown." How simply a children's classic cartoon reminds us!
It is a fine thing to remember, you say, but what does Bethlehem thousands of years ago mean to me, millenia and oceans away? This is the point at which the song makes me think. What DOES Bethlehem mean to us? More than just the name of a place in the ancient world, when we hear this word, we think of the one who was born there, and why. Jesus--Emmanuel--is God's peace, with us. Not up high, in some far-away place we can't see or hear. Jesus was born to a young girl, in a stable. He was born to, and lived in, far poorer conditions than we probably live in, not in some fancy house where he wore robes of scarlet and gold. He made a living at the good and honest profession of carpentry; he was not rich and idle. To his birth, the angels invited shepherds, not kings and rich neighbors. He was like you and me--he lived with people as ordinary as we are. He walked among us. He cared for the sick and the poor. He touched those no one else would touch and loved those no one else would love. He still lives among us in our hearts, and still loves those who have no one to love them. He still reaches out and touches us, if we would be his hands and his voice.
Born in Bethlehem, he is "God with us" and the Light of the World, banishing the darkness of fear, of loneliness, indeed of death itself. He is the hope of the new day, and even of a new life. No matter who we are, he welcomes us with open arms, as his brothers and sisters, children of God. And on Christmas, when we seek him, we find him in Bethlehem--not a remote village, but the deepest places in our hearts. He is there, waiting. So in this Christmas season and throughout the year, how far IS it to Bethlehem? With the confidence of a child of God and one who is beloved of Christ, I can tell you: not very far. Not very far at all.
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O come, all ye faithful, joyful and triumphant! Oh come ye, oh come ye to Bethlehem. Come and behold him, born the King of Angels. Oh, come let us adore him, oh, come let us adore him, oh, come let us adore him, Christ the Lord!
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How far is it to Bethlehem? Not very far.
Shall we find the stable room lit by a star?
Can we see the little child, is he within?
If we lift the wooden latch may we go in?
May we stroke the creatures there, ox, ass, or sheep?
May we peep like them and see Jesus asleep?
If we touch his tiny hand, will he awake?
Will he know we've come so far just for his sake?
Great kings have precious gifts, and we have naught,
little smiles and little tears are all we brought.
For all weary children Mary must weep--
Here on this bed of straw, sleep, children, sleep.
God in his mother's arms, babes in the byre,
Sleep, as they sleep who find their heart's desire.
"How Far Is It To Bethlehem?" words by Frances Alice (Blogg) Chesterton, music traditional tune "Stowey." Youtube examples here and here.
"Oh Come, All Ye Faithful" Latin words by John F. Wade, translated by Frederick Oakeley & William T. Brooke. Music tune "Adeste Fidelis" sometimes attributed to Wade and sometimes not.
How far is it to Bethlehem?
"How far is it to Bethlehem? Not very far." These are the words of a song I sang in high school on a couple of different occasions. To me, it always seemed there was a deeper meaning than just the story of a group of travelers in Israel 2,000 years ago, wishing to visit their newborn King. After all, how does that relate to us here and now? What can we learn from the story of the baby Jesus other than the facts of an old, though important, tale?
It's easy to forget that it's more than just a story. Every year we gather to welcome our Savior to the world once again. We sing songs, we pray, we spend time with family, we may meditate on our lives and what Jesus means to them. But it's still easy to think of it as just an old tale.
Can we find the meaning of that tale in today's busy world? Can we look past the rush and commercialism that is Christmas these days and truly imagine what it was like on the night when choirs of angels sang to shepherds?
In "A Charlie Brown Christmas," a frustrated Charlie Brown yells, "Isn't there anyone who knows what Christmas is all about?" Linus steps up and quietly quotes Luke 2:8-14: And there were in the same country shepherds, abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them! And they were sore afraid ... And the angel said unto them, "Fear not! For, behold, I bring you tidings of great joy, which shall be to all my people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ, the Lord."
"And this shall be a sign unto you: Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger." And suddenly, there was with the angel a multitude of the Heavenly Host praising God, and saying, "Glory to God in the Highest, and on Earth peace, and good will toward men." He finishes with, "and that's what Christmas is all about, Charlie Brown." How simply a children's classic cartoon reminds us!
It is a fine thing to remember, you say, but what does Bethlehem thousands of years ago mean to me, millenia and oceans away? This is the point at which the song makes me think. What DOES Bethlehem mean to us? More than just the name of a place in the ancient world, when we hear this word, we think of the one who was born there, and why. Jesus--Emmanuel--is God's peace, with us. Not up high, in some far-away place we can't see or hear. Jesus was born to a young girl, in a stable. He was born to, and lived in, far poorer conditions than we probably live in, not in some fancy house where he wore robes of scarlet and gold. He made a living at the good and honest profession of carpentry; he was not rich and idle. To his birth, the angels invited shepherds, not kings and rich neighbors. He was like you and me--he lived with people as ordinary as we are. He walked among us. He cared for the sick and the poor. He touched those no one else would touch and loved those no one else would love. He still lives among us in our hearts, and still loves those who have no one to love them. He still reaches out and touches us, if we would be his hands and his voice.
Born in Bethlehem, he is "God with us" and the Light of the World, banishing the darkness of fear, of loneliness, indeed of death itself. He is the hope of the new day, and even of a new life. No matter who we are, he welcomes us with open arms, as his brothers and sisters, children of God. And on Christmas, when we seek him, we find him in Bethlehem--not a remote village, but the deepest places in our hearts. He is there, waiting. So in this Christmas season and throughout the year, how far IS it to Bethlehem? With the confidence of a child of God and one who is beloved of Christ, I can tell you: not very far. Not very far at all.
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O come, all ye faithful, joyful and triumphant! Oh come ye, oh come ye to Bethlehem. Come and behold him, born the King of Angels. Oh, come let us adore him, oh, come let us adore him, oh, come let us adore him, Christ the Lord!
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How far is it to Bethlehem? Not very far.
Shall we find the stable room lit by a star?
Can we see the little child, is he within?
If we lift the wooden latch may we go in?
May we stroke the creatures there, ox, ass, or sheep?
May we peep like them and see Jesus asleep?
If we touch his tiny hand, will he awake?
Will he know we've come so far just for his sake?
Great kings have precious gifts, and we have naught,
little smiles and little tears are all we brought.
For all weary children Mary must weep--
Here on this bed of straw, sleep, children, sleep.
God in his mother's arms, babes in the byre,
Sleep, as they sleep who find their heart's desire.
"How Far Is It To Bethlehem?" words by Frances Alice (Blogg) Chesterton, music traditional tune "Stowey." Youtube examples here and here.
"Oh Come, All Ye Faithful" Latin words by John F. Wade, translated by Frederick Oakeley & William T. Brooke. Music tune "Adeste Fidelis" sometimes attributed to Wade and sometimes not.
Christmas 2003
12-24-2003
Oh, holy night...or, sing, choirs of angels
It's Christmas Eve. Tonight I will get dressed up, head to church, don a choir robe, and sing. In two different choirs. At two different services. Of course, it's different than the hustle of other years when I would be singing in two choirs and playing in the orchestra. In the small front of our church, it's not easy navigating my way sometimes. Luckily, this year, I'm not playing.
I also have most of my Christmas shopping done. I'll finish it up tomorrow (last-minute stuff for my mom; it's hard to go shopping when she has to drive me, ya know?)
But is the mild frenzy at church, and getting presents I know people will like, really what it's all about? I love singing in the choir, and Christmas is always a fun time at church, and I like seeing the faces of my family and friends when they open their presents...but...I also like watching the Charlie Brown Christmas special. If you'll remember, Charlie Brown is lamenting the commercialism of Christmas, and wondering "Isn't there anyone who knows what Christmas is all about?!" And, as it turns out, Linus does:
And there were in the same country shepherds, abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them! And they were sore afraid ... And the angel said unto them, "Fear not! For, behold, I bring you tidings o great joy, which shall be to all my people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ, the Lord."
"And this shall be a sign unto you: Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger." And suddenly, there was with the angel a multitude of the Heavenly Host praising God, and saying, "Glory to God in the Highest, and on Earth peace, and good will toward men."
"That's what Christmas is all about, Charlie Brown."
And indeed it is. Which brings me to my favorite part of our Christmas Eve services at my church. At the end, just after communion and just before the benediction, everyone takes a candle. The lights are dimmed, flames are passed along the rows, and we sing "Silent Night." Every year we do this, and every year it has the same effect on me. There is no way I can ever keep the tears from my eyes. You see, tonight, as I have on every Christmas Eve night for the past few years, I will look around at all of those people who are like family to me, their faces lit by candles. We will all be together on this special night, gathered to honor a baby, born in a manger, over 2,000 years ago, halfway across the world. And we will sing. We may not all have the best voices, we may not all even be on key. But on this night, we will all be like the choirs of angels singing "glory to the newborn king." We will each hold a small candle, with a tiny glittering flame. Each in itself may be small, may seem insignificant, but together, we illuminate a church, and fill its walls with light and song. In this same way, a tiny, seemingly insignificant baby has become the Light of the World. And what can be more amazing than that?
Fall on your knees, oh, hear the angel voices! Oh night divine, oh night when Christ was born. Oh night, oh holy night, when Christ was born.
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Sing, choirs of angels, sing in exultation...Oh, come let us adore him, Christ the Lord.
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Joy to the World! The Lord is come...and heaven and nature sing!
"O Holy Night" these words by John Sullivan Dwight, music by Adolphe Adam
"Oh Come, All Ye Faithful" Latin words by John F. Wade, translated by Frederick Oakeley & William T. Brooke. Music tune "Adeste Fidelis" sometimes attributed to Wade and sometimes not.
"Joy To The World" words by Isaac Watts, music by George Friedrich Handel
Oh, holy night...or, sing, choirs of angels
It's Christmas Eve. Tonight I will get dressed up, head to church, don a choir robe, and sing. In two different choirs. At two different services. Of course, it's different than the hustle of other years when I would be singing in two choirs and playing in the orchestra. In the small front of our church, it's not easy navigating my way sometimes. Luckily, this year, I'm not playing.
I also have most of my Christmas shopping done. I'll finish it up tomorrow (last-minute stuff for my mom; it's hard to go shopping when she has to drive me, ya know?)
But is the mild frenzy at church, and getting presents I know people will like, really what it's all about? I love singing in the choir, and Christmas is always a fun time at church, and I like seeing the faces of my family and friends when they open their presents...but...I also like watching the Charlie Brown Christmas special. If you'll remember, Charlie Brown is lamenting the commercialism of Christmas, and wondering "Isn't there anyone who knows what Christmas is all about?!" And, as it turns out, Linus does:
And there were in the same country shepherds, abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them! And they were sore afraid ... And the angel said unto them, "Fear not! For, behold, I bring you tidings o great joy, which shall be to all my people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ, the Lord."
"And this shall be a sign unto you: Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger." And suddenly, there was with the angel a multitude of the Heavenly Host praising God, and saying, "Glory to God in the Highest, and on Earth peace, and good will toward men."
"That's what Christmas is all about, Charlie Brown."
And indeed it is. Which brings me to my favorite part of our Christmas Eve services at my church. At the end, just after communion and just before the benediction, everyone takes a candle. The lights are dimmed, flames are passed along the rows, and we sing "Silent Night." Every year we do this, and every year it has the same effect on me. There is no way I can ever keep the tears from my eyes. You see, tonight, as I have on every Christmas Eve night for the past few years, I will look around at all of those people who are like family to me, their faces lit by candles. We will all be together on this special night, gathered to honor a baby, born in a manger, over 2,000 years ago, halfway across the world. And we will sing. We may not all have the best voices, we may not all even be on key. But on this night, we will all be like the choirs of angels singing "glory to the newborn king." We will each hold a small candle, with a tiny glittering flame. Each in itself may be small, may seem insignificant, but together, we illuminate a church, and fill its walls with light and song. In this same way, a tiny, seemingly insignificant baby has become the Light of the World. And what can be more amazing than that?
Fall on your knees, oh, hear the angel voices! Oh night divine, oh night when Christ was born. Oh night, oh holy night, when Christ was born.
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Sing, choirs of angels, sing in exultation...Oh, come let us adore him, Christ the Lord.
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Joy to the World! The Lord is come...and heaven and nature sing!
"O Holy Night" these words by John Sullivan Dwight, music by Adolphe Adam
"Oh Come, All Ye Faithful" Latin words by John F. Wade, translated by Frederick Oakeley & William T. Brooke. Music tune "Adeste Fidelis" sometimes attributed to Wade and sometimes not.
"Joy To The World" words by Isaac Watts, music by George Friedrich Handel
About me and this blog
About this blog:
This is simply a place for anything I have written or found that I think inspirational. Anything written by me is subject to copyright and may not be used or reproduced without my permission, and you certainly may not attribute it to yourself and must show credit where credit is due. If you re-post anything, please link back here to the post it appeared in. If you reproduce it anywhere else, please include a link to this blog and/or the specific post. Anything not written by me will be attributed to its creator(s), and if at all possible, I will try to post information to help you find it yourself.
Background images are from Hubble Site: http://hubblesite.org/
See copyright info here: http://hubblesite.org/about_us/copyright.php
About me:
I'm a 30-something, lifelong Christian. I do not identify with a specific Protestant denomination as I've attended churches of several denominations over the years. My current church is a Congregational church. The church I consider my "home" church (my former church in my home town) is Presbyterian Church (USA). I could align myself with any number of progressive denominations. My faith is strongly nature-oriented, and I enjoy some mystical disciplines such as contemplative prayer/meditation, and like and respect and learn from Buddhism.
I do not believe it is a sin to be feminist, gay, or childfree. I do not believe Jesus espoused hate at any time, and I do not believe that spewing hate and vitriol, whether in the name of religion or not, is a Christian act. I have a deep respect for all peaceful religions, as well as the peaceful practice of no religion at all. I have friends who span from atheism and agnosticism to Wicca to Catholicism to Protestant Christianity to Judaism to Islam and many points along any of those paths. I am likely to hold to the Pagan credo, "an it harm none, do what you will" with my own personal addition: "it is between a person and their God." I cannot pretend to speak for God and know for sure what is a sin and what is not. What I do know is that if no one is being harmed, it is not my place to get between a person, their conscience, and God about a specific matter.
I tend to struggle with my faith in a couple large ways. The first is that I am not very good at this "turn the other cheek" or "forgive seventy times seven times" thing. I do not like the idea of being a doormat, nor do I like the idea of other people being doormats. I cannot be sugary nice. I do tend to extend respect and courtesy to all who prove they deserve it, but I can't bring myself to do so for those who have clearly demonstrated that they do NOT deserve my regard, and I do have a lot trouble with loving my enemies. My other difficulty is in following God's path for my life. I often feel like I am led to making the world a better place. Unfortunately life sort of got in the way of these goals. I am often not sure how I can reconcile my current life--job, family, etc.--with the life I feel I ought to be living of giving my all to help ease the load for others--be they people, animals, or the environment--and this is something I have trouble with on a regular basis.
I welcome friends of all faiths, and none at all, who wish to share discourse, knowledge, etc. I do not welcome those who merely wish to be contentious or hateful. A respectful, intelligent, thoughtful challenge is one thing. Spouting your mouth off out of anger, ignorance, or hate is another, and you will receive no response to such comments.
I leave you with my personal faith statement, which I wrote back in high school when going through Confirmation class at my "home" church. It still holds true today, and I have not found any reason since to revise it.
I believe in God: the father, maker of all that exists; the son, savior of my soul; and the Holy Spirit, my comfort and guide. I believe in the Holy Bible, the written word of God. I believe that I am saved only by the grace of God and that at my death, my body will return to dust but my soul will live forever. I believe in the love of Jesus Christ, God incarnate, who died for my sins, and that one day he will return to this earth in glory. I believe in the neverending love, support, forgiveness, and guidance of God. I believe that we are all God's children, each unique and beautiful but equal in his eyes and his love.
This is simply a place for anything I have written or found that I think inspirational. Anything written by me is subject to copyright and may not be used or reproduced without my permission, and you certainly may not attribute it to yourself and must show credit where credit is due. If you re-post anything, please link back here to the post it appeared in. If you reproduce it anywhere else, please include a link to this blog and/or the specific post. Anything not written by me will be attributed to its creator(s), and if at all possible, I will try to post information to help you find it yourself.
Background images are from Hubble Site: http://hubblesite.org/
See copyright info here: http://hubblesite.org/about_us/copyright.php
About me:
I'm a 30-something, lifelong Christian. I do not identify with a specific Protestant denomination as I've attended churches of several denominations over the years. My current church is a Congregational church. The church I consider my "home" church (my former church in my home town) is Presbyterian Church (USA). I could align myself with any number of progressive denominations. My faith is strongly nature-oriented, and I enjoy some mystical disciplines such as contemplative prayer/meditation, and like and respect and learn from Buddhism.
I do not believe it is a sin to be feminist, gay, or childfree. I do not believe Jesus espoused hate at any time, and I do not believe that spewing hate and vitriol, whether in the name of religion or not, is a Christian act. I have a deep respect for all peaceful religions, as well as the peaceful practice of no religion at all. I have friends who span from atheism and agnosticism to Wicca to Catholicism to Protestant Christianity to Judaism to Islam and many points along any of those paths. I am likely to hold to the Pagan credo, "an it harm none, do what you will" with my own personal addition: "it is between a person and their God." I cannot pretend to speak for God and know for sure what is a sin and what is not. What I do know is that if no one is being harmed, it is not my place to get between a person, their conscience, and God about a specific matter.
I tend to struggle with my faith in a couple large ways. The first is that I am not very good at this "turn the other cheek" or "forgive seventy times seven times" thing. I do not like the idea of being a doormat, nor do I like the idea of other people being doormats. I cannot be sugary nice. I do tend to extend respect and courtesy to all who prove they deserve it, but I can't bring myself to do so for those who have clearly demonstrated that they do NOT deserve my regard, and I do have a lot trouble with loving my enemies. My other difficulty is in following God's path for my life. I often feel like I am led to making the world a better place. Unfortunately life sort of got in the way of these goals. I am often not sure how I can reconcile my current life--job, family, etc.--with the life I feel I ought to be living of giving my all to help ease the load for others--be they people, animals, or the environment--and this is something I have trouble with on a regular basis.
I welcome friends of all faiths, and none at all, who wish to share discourse, knowledge, etc. I do not welcome those who merely wish to be contentious or hateful. A respectful, intelligent, thoughtful challenge is one thing. Spouting your mouth off out of anger, ignorance, or hate is another, and you will receive no response to such comments.
I leave you with my personal faith statement, which I wrote back in high school when going through Confirmation class at my "home" church. It still holds true today, and I have not found any reason since to revise it.
I believe in God: the father, maker of all that exists; the son, savior of my soul; and the Holy Spirit, my comfort and guide. I believe in the Holy Bible, the written word of God. I believe that I am saved only by the grace of God and that at my death, my body will return to dust but my soul will live forever. I believe in the love of Jesus Christ, God incarnate, who died for my sins, and that one day he will return to this earth in glory. I believe in the neverending love, support, forgiveness, and guidance of God. I believe that we are all God's children, each unique and beautiful but equal in his eyes and his love.
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